work was haaaard today, we were so busy.
i passed by the host stand on the return trip to the chowder place with a big bag of food and no words exchanged, wendy just started laughing at me and i went ‘shut up, wendy’ and kept walking
sorry, i’m watching G.B.F because i have no standards and my roommate brought me coffee this morning so i’m a little jazzed up
anyways, we just got this really sweet gay guy as a new host, and it’s really fun working with him. it makes me feel very relaxed, like our energy is just very similar when it comes to hosting/staging pleasant interactions with people and i’m excited to work with him more.
my general manager and i are like, a lot closer than i ever expected. ever. we smoke weed together and like talk a lot, i called her before my mom after the car accident. she’s throwing her daughter (who is one of my fav teens on the planet) a sweet sixteen in the closed down nightclub ‘PINK’ next door to us in the mall, like renting it out. everyone thinks she’s this scary bitch but she is really fucking inspiring to me. she like, really likes and believes in me and was homeless at 15 and had her daughter when she was super young, but she was also a model and did a music video 5 years ago and she buys out everything michael kors sells. she has had my back on pretty much everything at work, and i can’t really say why. i’m like, not that great.
but my manager who hates me basically hates me in large part because she reaaallly hates my gm, who as i have made clear, loves me. i think the manager who hates me has a lot of problems with femininity and ‘unpopular’ syndrome, i.e. a taylor swift hater, you know? she just gives me that vibe. i think she has a complex that “pretty/cool” people are also very dumb, and that she is smart and unconcerned with appearance. which is fine, but me and jes (the gm) have talked a lot about how the other manager consistently acts that out at work. lol jes just said “i know she hates me because she’s just jealous of me, but like, that’s fine. let her be jealous, but jealous bitches are always going to think they’re better than you and want what you have. since you know they’re just jealous be nice to them because who cares, you win, just be a good person.” i really am barely paraphrasing here, i believe in my heart that jes and nicole richie are from the same cloth and like, you guys haven’t even seen her outfits.
anyways my point is
tl;dr this is the relevant part yesterday i was working with the new gay host and like, all the straight girls in the restaurant are losing their shit over him (because he’s Cute! and Scandalous! and has Lots of Sex!) and the manager i hate comes over. we’re talking about speaking russian for some reason and she goes off on this loooong rant about putin. she’s making lots of eye contact with me and the other host and saying
'he must be hiding something, you know? a man with that much vitriol can only be that way because like, he is, y'know. Like, he's got to just be some self-hating closet case. right? He must be.'
it was so fucking gross and i wanted to yell in her fucking face. putin= bad for gays, but straight people= good for gays therefore putin= gay because he sucks, basically? I totally forgot how ‘self-hating’ is like this old school term that all of ‘gay pride’ comes out of, like
'out and proud' is the binary opposite of “closeted, self-hating”
fuck you you fucking liberal straight lady you can fuck right off i know you think that’s nice or whatever but don’t ever insult this self-hating closet case to his face again, we will have words
my sister is going to turn eighteen next month and she still calls me ‘sissy’, excuse me i just need a moment
1996 MTV Movie Awards- Golden Girls cast does ‘Clueless’
christian virgin who can’t drive/tiny gay circus employee, lol okay if you had told me either of those things at sixteen i would have laughed in your face or started crying, although i can’t figure out which reaction would correspond to which identity
anyways major shout-out to jesus and dolly parton because, here’s the thing y’all
my dad hasn’t even been able to hold down one job in the last fifteen years, and now i have two!!! this definitively means i am not cursed!!!